Introversion is a personality trait characterised by a focus on internal feelings rather than external stimulation. While introverts and extroverts are often viewed in terms of two extreme opposites, the truth is that most people lie somewhere in the middle of the introversion- extroversion continuum.
As much as I love being in other people's company and spending time with friends, I have found that if I spend a lot of time constantly surrounded by people, I get to a point where I just need to be on my own. It all just becomes a bit too much and overwhelming and I become desperate for a bit of space. I found myself reaching this point yesterday morning, frustratingly when I still had commitments with other people. However, since then I have been cooping myself up in my room for the most part, and although it isn't the best for me in regards to the depression thing, I just like being on my own. Truth is, I rather enjoy my own company and am content with it for extended periods. When talking to extroverted friends and saying that I would happily be on my own for a week, while they look at me in confusion and terror, I realise that we are not quite the same.
Maybe the reason that I can spend so much time on my own happily, also comes down to the fact that I live in my own head a lot. I create entire other parallel worlds in my mind, I live a million different lives in my head daily, and I sometimes prefer that version of events to the real world. I'm pretty introspective, so even when I'm focused on living in the real world and contributing to it, a lot of my thinking is framed around self-reflection and improvement.
So yes- I am an introvert. I have now accepted that and I'm proud of it, not because there's anything wrong with being extroverted, but because it's who i am.
I know, and am often reminded, that we don't need to confine our identities into labels and letters, however, I find that this understanding of introversion has really helped me to understand my thinking process, and helped me to deal with it when I don't want to be around people. I like being able to understand more about myself, and though ultimately being an introvert isn't the main facet of my personality, it's something that makes me me.
Sometimes I will want to talk to you and never want to end. Sometimes I don't really want to talk to anyone. If you catch me in the former, I am very sorry and I promise that I'll shut up eventually. If you catch me in the latter, I am very sorry and I promise that it's nothing personal.