the blog of a 19 year old wandering through life half aimlessly, half with extreme purpose
So I have found that I have a tendency to get rather fixated on some people. Every time they are mentioned, I can't help but gush about how much I adore them and how great I think they are. However, I'd never really been entirely sure as to why these people in particular affected me so much. I've finally made the connection- and that connection is that God just shines out of them.
So if there's something that God has not just spoken to me about, but also my family recently, it's been intentionality. That idea of intentionally making time to set aside to meet with God. I have found that actually, it's not just our time that we are called to be intentional with, but also, how we actually worship.
To that boy I used to have feelings for...
Today has been one year since the day when I revealed said feelings to you. This last year has been a long one and a strange one, especially when it comes to you. Yes, a lot of how I feel has been said in blogs I've written or poems I've written (you didn't know about those, soz), or even in the indirect passive aggressive tweets I write. However, there's still some stuff to get off my chest, and since I've been reflecting on you the whole of this weekend anyway, I figured that writing you a letter may do me some good.
So waking up yesterday, I woke up to a seemingly different world. I woke up to a world in which Donald Trump was the President of the United States. And it seemed as though hate had won, and the reality of America was revealed. And it felt scarily similar to the way that I felt when I woke up on the 24th June to the news that Brexit had won, and we were to leave the EU. And it's got me thinking a lot about what the state of the world has come to.
So my first essay deadline for the academic year was today. As expected, I only submitted the essay today. In fact, I only wrote it today. Yep, that's right. The whole 2000 words. I actually wrote those whole 2000 words and submitted it in less than 3 hours. I'm not quite sure how either. It was stupid of me, though. After a year of uni, you think I would've learnt to plan my time better, or at least to start planning an essay more than the day before its due date. However, I never seem to learn...