So as you have probably gathered from my recent blog posts, it has been a weird few weeks. Truthfully, I have found these last few weeks really hard, and I have been feeling pretty rubbish.
However there's not really much I can do to deal with my current problems. I mean I've asked a few people for advice, and most of them see that.
There is one thing that has seem to come up multiple times, and that is just that I need to wait things out.
The signs have all pointed towards me needing to do this, so I guess I am now entering a waiting period...
However the next day, I rocked up to Christian Union late, and when I asked my friend next to me what the passage was, they said it was Psalm 27. So I pulled my Bible out of my bag, flicked over to the Psalms, and had a read. The last verse of the chapter is as follows:
Wait for the Lord.
Be strong and take heart;
And wait for the Lord - Psalm 27:14
Only one problem, patience isn't really my strong point.
So this is going to be a new learning curve for me. However, I know that it really is the best thing for me to do right now. So many of my stresses come from the fact that I try and force things, and I try and to fix things when they go wrong. Sometimes, it's not actually my place to fix it, and by trying, I've actually made things worse. I need to take a step back, and just let life take its natural course.
I say that I believe that God has a plan for my life, and I just have to trust that, and get on with things, not trying to micromanage every little facet of my existence.
Over the last month, I became obsessed with a little musical called Hamilton, which you may have heard of. There is a song from it, one which I have named this blog after of which the chorus is:
Life doesn't discriminate,
Between the sinners and the saints,
It takes and it takes and it takes,
But we keep living anyway,
We rise and we fall and we break and we make our mistakes,
And if there's a reason I'm still alive, when everyone who loved me has died,
Then I'm willing to wait for it.
I'm willing to wait for it.
So that's what I'm saying right now in my life. There is a reason I'm alive and i'm here and d'ya know what: I'm willing to wait for it.